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Into The Glass Wilderness.
Created on 2007-10-28 21:19:07 (#14131917), last updated 2009-11-13
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Basic Info| Name: | [too busy sinking] |
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| Location: | Ireland |
Bio[Formally known as nihilbymouth]
I have too many interests and likes/loves to list. Despite the fact that things manage to be quite screwy or otherwise hectic (I was recently diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome), I make an effort to love life and don't plan on letting these things kick my arse fully. I live for books. I adore reading. Give me anything and I'll read it. I love speculative fictions, classic literature, science, political literature, history and philosophy. I also love mythology - I am deeply frustrated with modernity at times and how contemporary existence affects the natural state of things. Not just environment but the natural state of the mind. Myth, fable, and also history, provide an escape from the 'rat race' lifestyle, and also seeks to rejuvenate a primal oneness with viewer and nature, and viewer and mind.
I'm a loner.
I'm a geeky booktard and loving it.
I get preoccupied with my interests very easy.
I love:
My books.
My music.
Nature and the country (there's plenty of that here), but I also love that feeling of anonymity provided by big cities.
On occasions craftiness and drawing.
Hot baths and sleeping under my electric blanket.
Baking.
The bizarre and unconventional.
Things and beings other people find ugly.
Anyhow, on to the supposed defectiveness.
Not long ago, I make an effort to eat more like a normal person, with the help of too many people wasting their time. Scratch that. Normal people tend to be unhappy, but then again so am I. I still eat like an athlete... With brain damage? I'm a dedicated recovery drop-out. I tried being one of those normal people Autumn of last year and weighed my prescribed weight. I'm no longer in active recovery, but I am pro-recovery and applaud anyone with the courage and strength to engage in it. At the minute I'm just another individual trying to get by. Diagnosed with Anorexia Nervosa type I four years ago and 'recovered' as far as weight goes thrice. Going on another year with Anorexia Nervosa subtype II.
As I've mentioned - I am not currently in recovery, although I am still attending outpatients and doing my best to keep my head above water, be it on my own volition or kicking and screaming by pushy clinicians. However, some may still find my rambles triggering. So there's your disclaimer.
I have other
Despite being 'the way I am'. I'm not pro-ana/pro-mia. Not only because it's pretty pathetic, but because most people who subscribe to this glorious 'lifestyle' usually piss me off. I am not ~AnAz~. Nope, I don't give a donkey's fart about thinspo. Though I do provide one great tip - Google Weight Watchers or Is there enough cyanide in 10,000 apple pips to kill a human being?
Eating disorders are not diets. It is not a choice. They are not chic lifestyle choices. They are not starbucks, cigarettes and size 0 skinny jeans. Anorexics are not 'thinspired' into emaciation. Self hatred and obsession is enough. It is seldom about weight, looking fashionable or getting attention. It is a mental illness most people misunderstand - The same ignorance, perpetrated by pro-ana/mia is harming countless people who need love and understanding. And it disgusts me to the core.
The Something Fishy Website on Eating Disorders
Information on Anorexia, Bulimia, Binge Eating Disorder, Compulsive Overeating. Eating Disorders definitions, signs and symptoms, physical dangers, treatment finder, online support and much more.
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4ad, abnormal psychology, anatomical art, androgyny, angela carter, anorexia nervosa, anthropology, arthur rackham, asperger's syndrome, baking, bento, biopsychology, birds, björk, bulimia nervosa, cigarettes, classic literature, classical music, cocteau twins, coil, colt, daisy chainsaw, daydreaming, dead can dance, dream pop, eating disorders, eccentrics, edward gorey, emilie autumn, esmerine, existential fiction, first wave industrial, folk metal, folk music, folk stories, frank mccourt, freakshows, frieda kahlo, gadgets, george orwell, glenn gould, h.g. wells, hamlet, hating my generation, helena bonham carter, herman hesse, history, industrial, ireland, irish history, irish nationalism, irish politics, irish republicanism, japan, jarboe, joel peter witkin, joseph merrick, kate bush, katie jane garside, katiejane garside, kink, laibach, lord byron, marquis de sade, mary shelley, marya hornbacher, maude gonne, mental health, michael gira, military, misanthropy, monty python, mythology, neuroscience, nikola tesla, not losing my glasses, oddballs, old things, philosophy, photography, piano, psychiatry, psychology, queenadreena, rasputina, recovery, richard wagner, ruby throat, russia, samuel beckett, sapiosexuality, satire, science, science fiction, self discovery, self-deprecation, shabby chic, snarking, soap&skin, social anxiety, solitude, speculative fiction, steampunk, stimming, string instruments, sushi, swans, teratology, the bronte sisters, the elephant man, the interwebs, the sea, thinking too much, this mortal coil, ugly things, useless information, victoriana, vintage findings, vintage propaganda, vivienne westwood, whimsy, wild theories, william butler yeats, world domination, wuthering heights, wwi, wwii
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